i have tried...
...to instill in myself a new sense of purpose. i determined that i do have a Calling, and know generally what i need to do to follow it, and i have a loving, patient husband and beautiful, happy, healthy son whom i love so much it breaks my heart. and still i cannot stave off this loneliness... not boredom, not even sadness, but loneliness...
posted by Ayesha | 8:55 PM
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Wow. I dont think of loneliness when I think of you--I always think of you being surrounded by people, always in touch with someone, always getting calls from a bunch of people, always attending 101 weddings. But loneliness can be beyond a busy social life.
I'm with you on that. Baby doesnt really take away loneliness. Nor does a guy. Often.
Interesting.........sometimes I feel the same way. I have found two things that help........Prayer and Wellbutrin......:)Alhamdulillah....
May Allah help you by taking away this feeling INsha'Allah and make you happy!:) Allah kareem!
well, you know, the difference between solitude and loneliness and all :) actually, this is the first time in my life it's both - it's only when i've been home alone with musa alllll daaaay and into the evening. it's a strange thing. and i think maybe i'm shutting people out. i don't want small talk or casual hanging out. actually, i want my cousin back here :(
manal, thank you so much for the duaa. like koonj's last post, i AM grateful for what i have and i am "happy", it's just this feeling that comes now and then... but, you're right about prayer! haven't tried the wellbutrin tho :)
i know what you mean. small talk and phone calls are actually like a taunt - that i cant have a REAL life. it's like i hate having a barely recognizable semblance of it.
If it makes you feel better, it does get better. I guess I have that tunnel vision or hindsight going. When I had Safah, I was there 24/7, while the hubby worked and mom worked. I didn't feel like really goig places and seeing people was too hard, they were too far away. I expected alot of myself (like now...why haven't I done X..Y..and Z.) But after a time, I started to want to make the effort. Email helped, though it seems I would spend hours waiting to see if anyone would email me that day. Gotta love the chat!!!! Like a phone call that you can space out all day!
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